Sean "Diddy" Combs He delivered heartfelt praise to ex-girlfriend Kim Porter at her funeral in Columbus, Georgia, on Saturday, November 24, revealing that she helped him earlier this year while battling depression.
"From the height of the year, I was going through a really dark moment," said Diddy, who dated the actress and model for 13 years until 2007, according to audio published by TMZ. "I was really depressed, and I do not know why, maybe it was because I was getting older, I just went through a dark and dark time, and she would come and make sure … we were not together … She just said," Come on, Puff. You have to get up, you have to get out of bed. You have to move & # 39; "
The Blast reports that Diddy spoke for 18 minutes during the service at Cascades Hill Church, attended by more than a thousand mourners, including Mary J. Blige, Kimora Lee Simmons, Russell Simmons, Usher, DJ Khaled, NeNe Leakes, Kandi Burruss, Cynthia bailey, Lil Kim Y Faith Evans.
Speaking of the first time he saw Porter, who died at his L.A. At the age of 47 on November 15, the rapper said he thought: "God, I hope someday I get a girl like that."
After they started dating in 1994, their relationship grew and changed. "She was my friend first, she was my confidant, she was my guide, she still is, she was open … We fell in love and, frankly, her love was too much for me, it was too much to handle to assimilate," she said.
Apparently overwhelmed, Diddy, who shares three children – Christian, 20, and the twin daughters Jessie James and D'Lila, 11, with Porter, told the crowd: "We did not really plan this, I definitely thought I was going first, God did not have to be like that."
Addressing his children as well as Porter's son. Quincy, with Alabama. B clear, he said, "I just want to say, to my children – Justin, Christian, D'Lila, Jessie, Chance and the other man of the house, Quincy – Your mother instilled in me this, that I commit myself in front of everyone at this moment, that I will always be there for everyone. I will always take care of you. Especially for girls, we are about to enter different types of times. I want everyone to talk to me about everything, and I say it all. "
A previously told source We weekly that the musician was "inconsolable" for the loss of his ex. "Kim's death has changed his life upside down."
Speaking of his emotions, the singer of "I'll miss you" said to the mourners: "I'm not afraid." I'm not afraid. I'm sad. I'm hurt. But I do not feel like he's gone. I'm not like, & # 39; Oh, she's not here. & # 39; People go physically, but their energy, their vibration, their frequency, lives forever. "
Porter's cause of death has been classified as "deferred" and is "pending investigation" after an autopsy, according to a death certificate obtained by We.
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