Jonah Hill is learning to rebuild his self-esteem.
The 34-year-old actor began in the entertainment world when he was young, leaving him vulnerable to public criticism of his body. Hill said he began to reflect on that for the first time during his directorial debut, Mid 90's, that this is a 13 year old boy who tries to fit in.
While working on the film, Hill put together a magazine called Children inside, in which he wrote about his body image problems over the years.
"I became famous as a teenager and then spent most of my adult life listening to people say I was fat, disgusting and unattractive. And it's only in the last four years writing and directing my film, Mid 90's I began to understand how much it hurt and I got into my head, "he read in the magazine. The show by Ellen DeGeneres on Friday.
Hill writes in Children inside Who thinks this is a universal experience.
"I really believe that everyone has a snapshot of themselves from a time when they were young people they were ashamed of," he read. "For me, it's that overweight and unattractive 14-year-old boy who felt ugly with the world, who listened to hip-hop and wanted to be accepted by this community of skaters."
Hill told hostess Ellen DeGeneres that he thinks that feeling stays with you, regardless of your success later in life.
"I think everyone has a version of themselves … at some point in your life, the person you're trying to hide from the world," he said. "Even if you succeed or you grow up or you look good or whatever, the things that you think will fix the thing, in a way you take part of that with you."
But exploring those issues in the magazine while working on Mid 90's He helped Hill to work through his emotions.
"What I thought was incredible about [the magazine] Was it really a complementary piece to write and direct? Mid 90's "For me, this film is about learning to love yourself and find a community of people who accept you and how imperfect life is," he said. "It took me a long time, honestly so far, to come out as the kind of person, artist, mind, what I represent, how I feel, how I would like to be spoken to, how I speak" The world in a way that really represents who I am as a person, instead of trying to be something else that I am not. "
DeGeneres added that she understands exactly how Hill feels, especially as someone who also works in Hollywood.
"We enter this business, especially actors and actresses, first seeking approval, seeking love, to fill a gap and also to become other people to avoid being exactly who we are," said DeGeneres, 60. "A lot of people stay stuck in that role play instead of knowing who you are. So it's great that you've found who you are and love who you are because you're a brilliant man. I'm glad you love yourself! "
"I'm under construction as we all are," Hill says.
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the Maniac Star has spent the last years of her career altering her body for various roles. After gaining weight for the 2016 film Dogs of war, decided to lose weight again, with a little hard love of his 22 Jump Street cost Channing Tatum.
"I gained weight for this movie Dogs of warAnd then I wanted to get in better shape, so I called Channing Tatum and said, "Hey, if I ate less and went to a coach, would it put me in better shape?" And he said, "Yes, silly Motherf-, of course you will, it's the simplest thing in the whole world," Hill said in 2017.